Thursday, April 21, 2011


I love spring and all that it brings. But I don't love bugs.

I found this in our kitchen. This is our first bug. Documented. And shared with the world. We have lived in this house since October. We have strawberry wallpaper (no, not the color-- strawberries, as from your grandmother's kitchen) but no bugs. Until today. This is my solution.

On a happy note.
Introducing: our children.
I mean seedlings.

We don't have real children. We don't have a dog yet. But we have seedlings.
And oh, do I love them.

Monday, April 18, 2011

"What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? He who did not spare his own Son but gave him up for us all, how will he not also with him graciously give us all things? Who shall bring any charge against God's elect? It is God who justifies. Who is to condemn? Christ Jesus is the one who died--more than that, who was raised--who is at the right hand of God, who indeed is interceding for us. Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or danger, or sword? ... No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord."
Romans 8:31-39

Nothing can separate us from God's love for us in Christ. Encouraging.
I am more than a conqueror. How often do I actually remind myself of that truth? In Christ, I have already conquered sin. Why then, do I continue to live, too often, as though I have not? Fletcher is good at reminding me-- I need to talk to myself, instead of listen to myself. I need to preach the gospel to myself, even when I don't feel like it. In doing this, I glorify Christ and the Spirit working in me. Also, I can then speak the truth to others. One of our pastors, Robert Cheong told us last night-- "You can't offer the Gospel in a compelling way unless you are compelled by the Gospel."

Sunday, April 17, 2011

The Feminist Mistake

At the Gospel Coalition conference, I attended a workshop taught by Mary Kassian, entitled, "The Feminist Misake." This workshop was both helpful and hard to swallow for me. She gave us a brief outline  of the feminist movement within the US. I would like to give you all a summary:

I. Exultation of the home and the homemaker -- around the early 1950's
This is when new technology came out such as the mixer and washer. Technological advances for the home made the home a more enjoyable place to be. Women took pride in their work.

II. Discontentment -- late 1950's
"The restless housewife" began to discover that she was not as happy as she thought.
The book, "The Feminist Mystique," written by Betty Frieden, was released. Frieden stated that women were the "second sex." She encouraged women to rebel against men and this ideology. She suggested that men had created these social structures and that they were in need of being overthrown.

III. Redefinition
Women began to pursue a redefinition on manhood, womanhood, and family.

IV. The Golden Age of Feminism -- 1970's & 1980's
Personal pain and experiences became political.
Conciouseness-Raising Groups (CR groups) began meeting in women's homes. In these groups, women basically came together to talk about their problems as housewives. Together, they became more zealous and active in the movement.
Women gained government funding-- such as Planned Parenthood.
Women could now get a BA, MA and beyond in women's studies.
Sex became known as a powerful expression of a woman's self.
Equality means interchangeability.

V. Today
"It's funny how things change slowly, until the day we realize they've changed completely."
Women exult independence. Men are expected to conform.
But again, we are discontent. Where to go from here?
Some statistics from an article in Time, "The State of the American Woman":
-about 40% of women are the primary bread winners in the home.
-there are now more women in the workforce than men.
-College campuses used to be 60-40 (men-women), now the ratio has reversed.
-Women are now more anxious than men about their family's financial security.
-About half of women surveyed in households earning less than $75,000 want to delay pregnancy or limit the number of children they have.
Mary Kassain said, "When everything else has risen [rights, etc.], happiness has fallen."

I found Mary Kassain's lecture very interesting and encouraging.
This was hard for me to swallow:
We can't stereotype. We can't create checklists. We can't go back to the 1950's. 
Ouch. I am more guilty than anyone.
We live in a different culture! I have noticed-- and practiced-- we as Christian women tend to think that if we are just good little housewives, then all will be right in the world. BUT I, personally, have developed the ability to cook, clean, do all of the laundry, and be disrespectful to my husband all at the same time! Do you see the irony? Do you see the feminist ideology creeping into my home? I can be the perfect housewife, but I am still thinking along the disgusting lines of, "I am a woman and therefore superior to this man who is my husband." It is so evil!
My housekeeping skills have proved to be anything but my righteousness. Praise Jesus. My identity is not found in my wifey-ness.

Men are not the problem, sin is the problem!
Our problem as women is spiritual. It can not be solved by our own advances.
We can not lose focus! Our primary goal as women is putting the Gospel on display. Jesus died to set us free. Are we living as free women?

Saturday, April 16, 2011

The reinvention of this blog.

I haven't blogged in a while. 
For all two of you who occasionally glance at this blog, I would like to point out the fact that I have deleted almost every post. The only posts that remain do so for my own benefit, honestly-- they're my favorite recipes! And this blog is the only place where I presently have record of them. So they stay. But I have found the others to be slightly vain and silly. 

A little silly. 
Not to be offensive, but only to be observant, I have noticed a pattern among many women.
Get married. Create a blog. Blog. ---recipes, organic gardening, couponing, you name it. 
Have a baby. Blog even more. ---post many, many pictures. Crying babies and complications not permitted. 

I was reading through some of my favorite blogs a few days ago and thought to myself, "My life doesn't look like this." The harmless though soon evolved into "Why doesn't my life look like this?!" What's wrong with me? She never screams at her husband. Where in the world am I going to find the time to soak my own grains? Her life is apparently perfect. I must find somebody who can teach me how to sew and fast! 

A little over-exaggerated. But seriously. I was so discouraged. 

Is my discouragement to be of the liability and fault of these other women? Absolutely not. 
Also-- people often have "family" blogs by which their distant family keep up with their lives. I get that.
But I have asked myself-- In what way can I best encourage and preach the Gospel of Jesus to my sisters (and often times, brothers) in Christ? I believe that the gospel of Susie Homemaker is far different than the Gospel that my Jesus has to offer. 

I have also struggled with the vanity that encompasses the blogging and twitter world.
Frankly, I don't care where you ate lunch or what time you go to the gym every day. Sorry. 
I found this quote on a blog post by Justin Taylor on the Gospel Coalition blog:  

“The Internet world we live in today is awash in narcissism and vanity, with some people taking their clothes off literally, because exposure gives them a rush, and others doing it spiritually—because the addicting power of talking about yourself, where anyone in the world can read it, is overpowering.” 
-John Piper

Pride. Vanity. It is overpowering

Here is the thought that I have wrestled with over and over-- 
Who am I to think that I have anything to write that is actually worth reading? 
I do not want to add to the narcissistic ideology that we as individuals are so interesting and fantastic that everybody wants to read about it. Again, I do not mean to be offensive, but only observant. 

Fletcher and I attended the Band of Bloggers meeting at the Gospel Coalition Conference
I gained a lot of insight from men who have struggled with the same convictions. 
My conclusions (gleaned from others)-- 

1.) The idea of blogging is not new. 
*Note: The idea of informing everyone of your change of shoes, this morning's breakfast, and your current location is new. And stupid. 
But people have written books and newspaper articles for a very long time. 

2.) It should be a conversation.
I want all two of you to interact with me. When you disagree, tell me! Let's talk about it. 
I feel that this is the best way to keep a small head on my shoulders-- it not really my blog. It is an instrument through which I can encourage others. It is a place where we can talk about it together. It is a conversation.

3.) I do not have it all figured out. 
The day I write the contrary on this blog is the day I will, by the Grace of God, shut it down. 
To echo the second point, it is a conversation! 
I am not a theologian. I am only a woman desiring to love the Lord with all of my heart, soul and mind (Matthew 22:37) and to spur others on to do the same.